Pretend

This whole period I've been pretending. Pretending to be happy, consistent, lively and all those emotions where one can not make out if you're sad or hurt on the inside. I've been living a pretended life for all this time long. I pretend I don't feel for you anymore. I pretend you aren't important to me anymore.  I pretend everything is fine between us. But deep down inside only I know it's all a lie. It's a scene pretended in my life. I still feel for you. I care for you. I extremely miss you. Miss you and us. Those talks. Those walks. Those times when we used to hold hands. The time where I used to hide under my bedsheet to write letters and poems for you. The time when you also felt the same way what I felt. I till now don't know what changed you and your mind. I still blame myself to make you feel all the wrong emotions. I still feel whatever happened was my mistake. I would give a million tries to fix this all over again. Rather than to start with someone new. If I had a chance to relive those moments again. I wouldn't change a single thing. 
-Horizon:)

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